Sunday, June 18, 2006

Life update...

I am working two jobs and I think that i might die before I get to college. I am going crazy and not getting enough sleep and probably not eatting the way that I should.
Friends are good, family is good, college preperations are good, time is non-exsistent. I miss my life.
Other than that, I have nothing to add. I just want everyone to know that I am alive and well. Really.

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Graduation Gift

My Parents gave me a LAPTOP!!!!! I am so excited! It has internet and all this really neat stuff. I was kinda worried about not having a computer of my own at school, but this is amazing!!! I didn't expect this at all.
I keep saying the same thing over and over. I am so excited!!!!!
I have the sweetest, most wonderfulest parents in the whole world!!

Monday, May 22, 2006


Hmmm..It's over! Praise the Lord! It was beautiful and I did savor the moments, but it was a long weekend.
I got up early and started to get stuff together. I was at the church by 12:30pm and got my table ready. I was a little freaked out when it was 1:30 and my speakers were not there yet...Yeah, that was a little scary.
Jack Rodgers and Scott Barber spoke and the were both AMAZING!! Caroline surprised me and sang me a beautiful song called "MY WISH". It was amazing and I cried my eyes out.
Afterwards, there were a million and twelve pictures to take. Then I left with Anna and Ben and we dropped Anna off and went and ran some errands for Mama Lou. There was a nice party for Anna. I got to meet the vast a majority of the Beck/Wingfield family and that was very interesting. They are all so funny. I really loved Mama Lou's sister, Vera. Too Cute!
All in all, it was a great weekend. I love my family and I love my friends!
College...Here I come!!

Friday, May 19, 2006


I graduate from highschool tomorrow! I have so much to do before then. There are gifts to finish and food to prepare for the reception and letters to write and so much more.

I am excited about my graduation, but I think that I am more excited about it being over and being able to focus on Annabeck for the rest of the day. I am trying to savor these moments. I know it only happens once and I know that it will be over in a New York minute.

I don't even really have time to be writing this. I don't know what I am thinking. I have a rehearsal with my piano teacher for tomorrow. I am singing the National Anthem. I have a hair appointment this afternoon. I need to finish up the slideshow by burning it on to CD's.

More later....

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Graduation Countdown...

Graduation is only 5 days away...I can't believe it. I have so much to do and there don't seem to be enough hours in the day.

Today was not the greatest day in the whole world, but I did find my graduation dress(which is one more thing that I can cross off my list). I love it. It is not what I was looking for, but it is perfect and very me. I'll post pics later.

I start a new job next week. I am going to be working a bbq place and I am kinda excited about it. It's going to be a killer summer, but things are going to work out just fine. They always do. :-)

I am starting to get sleepy and I have a big day tomorrow...So I am signing off for the night. But there will be lots to share this week, I am sure.

Monday, May 08, 2006


My birthday dinner was tonight. Annabeck, Ben Beck, and Rachel Sussenbach came over and we had steak. Yummy. Then there cookie cake and banana split ice cream(my favorite). There were gifts and a rousing game of PIG, because Anna has two tests tomorrow and didn't have time for HORSE. :-)
We all had a good time, I do believe. I go the new Josh Groban CD and a Jack Johnson CD. Really excited about both of those.
Good day, good night. I am really happy. Enough said. :-)

Sunday, May 07, 2006

I am so tired that I can barely keep my eyes open...

Today has been a CRAZY day. We went to church this morning. Ben Beck came too. That was nice. We all went and ate lunch and drove back to Columbus for our piano recital. That was my last piano recital and I was so proud of myself for keeping it together. :-)

We had Awana this afternoon. It was the last night. YEA!!! We get the summer off. Of course, I won't be there in the fall anyway, because of school.

Good day...long day. I need sleep. It's been a long week, with late nights and early mornings.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Life is good...

I cannot believe how great things are right now. I am just enjoying life and all that it has to offer.

Tonight I went to Brookstone's girl's soccer game...They lost. But a good time was had by all.

Lucy and I then went to get ice cream. And then I went to Anna's house for awhile. We played Frisbee in the hardaway field across the street. We are so sporty!!!

I got a new razor phone today. I love it. It make me very happy...In a non-materialistic way, of course.

All in all, I feel good about the way things are in my life. I am excited about the future, while savoring the present. Good way to live, I think. Obviously, that's why I am living that way.

God has been so good to me. I am blessed to have what I have. Relationships, clothes, food, a car to drive, life in general. I don't deserve all the goodness that exists in my life and yet, it's there. I sure do lover that God of mine! :-)

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Voice recital

Last night was great! I felt so good about my performance. I sang THAT WILL SHOW HIM from A FUNNY THING HAPPENED ON THE WAY TO THE FORUM and JIMMY from THOROUGHLY MODERN MILLIE. I had fun songs this year and I was able to play with them.

I had an emotional breakdown yesterday afternoon about this being my last voice recital. It was crazy. I cried and cried. Then I cried at the recital. I know the same thing will happen on Sunday at my piano recital.

I know that the next chapter of my life is going to be very exciting and I am ready for it, but knowing that this chapter is going to end in 18 days is a little much.

They say that tears cleanse the soul...I am going to have one, very clean soul.

Sunday, April 30, 2006

I'm Legal!!!

So...Today is my 18th birthday. My first decision as an 18 year old citizen of the good 'ole US of A, was to eat breakfast...How liberating...

Prom was last night and that was fun. Zach was a great date and doing the group thing with lots of friends was the best idea ever. We danced all night. Dinner was amazing and all in all, the night was a success.

Today has been a good day. I got a million and 12 phone calls. My mom and Dad gave me a gift to open today(more to come at my party), and Annabeck gave me her gift. I have to say, Beck gifts are the best. Random and funny, with lots of thought put into it.

Zach, Carson, and Kelsey painted the rock for me...At 3am. Very funny and sweet!

Voice recital tomorrow night. Kinda exciting and yet, bittersweet. It's my last highschool voice recital and my last with Kimberly Cone. I know I'm going to cry...

Friday, April 28, 2006

Friday night with the Braves...

Watching the Braves game right now. We're losing. It's because I am not at the game. However, Ben is there. Hopefully, the power of the beard will help the Braves out tonight. 3rd inning, 1-0, Mets. Stupid Mets...

Tomorrow is prom. I have a voice recital rehearsal at 9:20. Then lunch with Annabeck at noon. Make up at 1pm, hair at 2:30pm, and Zach is picking me up at 5pm. I think it will be a good day. I like being pampered. :-)

Sunday is my birthday. 18 years old....My oh my, I am getting to be sooooooo old. We are having fellowship meal after church. We will have cake and ice cream and presents at that.

I will have a party later. No big plans, but I like laid-back, low-key stuff anyway. Dinner, a few friends. Nothing big. I think that Zach is painting the rock for me...

Ahh, the braves are still losing. Things had better change up here pretty soon.

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

End of the School year stuff...

It's that time of the year. Only this year begins a new chapter and I am really getting somewhat stressed.

I am putting together a slideshow for graduation and planning this graduation, pretty much by myself. I don't know what happened.

I have prom this weekend and my birthday. Then there is a voice recital on the 1st of May and a piano recital on the 7th of May. The graduation on the 20th. Busy month.

This week is a crazy week. Honestly, it's going to stay crazy for awhile. No slowing down. I don't think that I would have it any other way.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

I had a close walk with Patsy Cline last night after midnight...

My dad took me to see "A closer walk with...Patsy Cline" last night at the Springer. It was pretty darn good.
Katie Deal played Patsy. She really had the voice down. As a die-hard Patsy fan, I was bound to be critical, but I was pleasantly surprised to find that she had mastered a lot of the vocal qualities that made Patsy...Patsy.
There was a packed house. Everyone was really into the show. Jens is back in town and he was at the show. It was good to see him. John Briggs was in town for the night. He directed ROMEO AND JULIET. It was nice to reconnect with friends who have been gone for awhile.
Academy starts soon and I am really excited. I think that we are going to have a great group. The fact that I get to spend four weeks, all day with Lucy Flournoy and Chrystal Carter makes me one happy girl.

Friday, April 21, 2006

Birthday talk....

So, there are only 9 days left until my birthday. I got a couple of early gifts today. Ben Beck gave me jelly beans(two bags) and the score card from Jeff Francoeur's first ball game with the Braves. He also gave me the ticket stub from the game. All of this was in a coffee box. Very cute. Then Paul Beck, not to be out done, gave a me a United Cheerleading tee-shirt and a CD that he burned on the spot. Two of the sweetest guys in my life. :-)

The parentals are out of town. They took my sister, Sarah Ann, to Athens for a piano competition. They stopped over in Atlanta for the night and some fun...I am not bitter at all. :-{

Tomorrow night, my dad is taking me to see "Forever, Patsy Cline" at the Springer. I am really excited about this!!!!!

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Wednesday, April 19, 2006


I've got that middle of the week feeling. It's been a long week and it's only Wednesday. I hate that. I like to enjoy my week and all the stuff that I do.

I have ballroom dancing tomorrow night. Always interesting. And good for a laugh. I also have a voice lesson tomorrow, which has thrown me off a bit, because of the fact that it's usually today. No big deal, but still...

Mom and Dad are going to Athens with Sara Ann this weekend for a piano competition. She had better win. I know she can do it. The best part is, she never has to play those songs again. YEA!! I am so over all of them. Everyone is. Mom says that she hears them in her sleep. Funny, but probably true.

All in all, today could have been better, but somebody else probably had a day that was much worse than mine. There is ALWAYS a silver lining.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Happiness is....

My life right now. All is well in theresatown. School, college stuff, friends, family, and just life in general.

Prom is right around the corner, my birthday is 12 days away, graduation is 32 days away, and college starts in August. Ahh...What more could a girl ask for?

Easter was a nice relaxing day. I got to hunt for eggs. It was our family only, so all 8 of us went egg hunting. It was great.
All in all, life is good. I couldn't ask for anything more!

Friday, April 14, 2006

I found it!!!

I found my prom dress and I love it!! It only took me about an hour and a half and I only tried on six dresses. It could have been worse! :-)
More about Prom later.....

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

I don't know what to write.....

However, I feel the need to write, so forgive me if this doesn't make much sense.
I just got off the phone with an old friend that I haven't talked to in awhile. We see each other sometimes, but not often and when we do it's more like "hello" and "goodbye". We talked for an hour. It's always nice to reconnect.
Right now I feel kinda sick. I have a fever of 100.3, which could be another reason why this blog doesn't make much sense. My normal body temperature is 97.4. Crazy, I know.
My weekend could turn out to be interesting. I'll let you know.
I am going to go shopping for a prom dress tomorrow. Prom is on the 29th and today is the 12th. Yeah... I should have had this dress weeks ago.
I'm tired. I might like to go to bed. I feel like I was run over by a truck...17,000,000 times. Ok...Maybe not 17,000,000 times. Maybe it's more like 7 times. Either way, it kinda sucks. And yet, it's ok. Why you might ask. I'm not telling, because I am just that selfish.

Sunday, April 09, 2006

Spring Break 2006

Ahhhh....I am really tired in a very good way. I just got back from the beach yesterday. My sister, Sarah Ann, and I went to Ponte Vedra with four moms and their six kids. We watched the kids at night while the moms went out. It was the easiest job ever. There were two boys and four girls. They were all so good. I was in total shock when they didn't complain when I put them to bed. I think that they were so tired from playing so hard on the beach all day that they fell to sleep immediately.

Free trip to the beach, free food, and I got payed. What more could a girl ask for?

School is coming to an end, my birthday is getting very close, Springer Academy is almost here, and all in all, life is good.

Spring Break '06 was a true success in every way.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Funny stuff....

Ok..So yesterday, I was at Evangel Temple with my sister(Sarah Ann). She had to record something and Jason Moore was helping us. He said that he had learned how to blog and he has on here on blogger called "jasonandstacie". Let me just say that I laughed and laughed and laughed. Good times right there. :-)
Today has been a good one. I got all my school stuff finished pretty early and then I went and had coffee with Ron Anderson and then I took Caroline to class and then went to the grocery store, picked Caroline up and came home. Tonight, I am supposed to hang with Annabeck before we both head out of town for the rest of our Springbreak. We are both going to the beach and I am really excited about having a few days of just playing on the beach.
I have been pretty happy and content for the past few days and I am still feeling that happy-glowing-feeling. I know what it is, but I'm not ready to share until I am sure that it's for real. Besides..I like to keep the 3.5 people that read this blog on their toes....

Monday, April 03, 2006

Can it get much better than this?

*Contented sigh*
The countdowns have begun! 27 days until I turn 18 and 47 days until graduation.
My show has closed and that has me feeling post show blues, but other than that....
I had a ton of friends come and see OLIVIATOWN. It was a good run and I can't wait to see the new cast next year.
I have made my college choice and that feels amazing. No more wondering or waiting. August will be here before I know it. Wow! It feels weird to be so close to being on my own. There is a whole new chapter of my life that is about to start. This is the time in our lives that we all wait for, but think will never come and it's finally here.
I have a good feeling inside me. A feeling that makes me giddy. I like it...

Thursday, March 23, 2006

College, Money, Theatre, and Graduation!!!

So...I have decided to go to LaGrange College in the fall and I am very excited about that. They have given me a good deal of money, but I still need a lot more. Their Theatre Department is amazing and I am planning on double majoring in Theatre and Music. I think that I may have lost my mind, but I am ready for the challenge. I am going into it with an open mind, knowing that I can drop music sophomore year, if I need too.

I am in OLIVIATOWN at the Springer. It's going well. I love my part. Very different for me and I am glad to be branching out.

All in all, things are great. I am enjoying my senior year. I am ready for graduation, but savoring the time I have left at the same time.

Thursday, March 09, 2006


They say that being in a large family makes you better able to share things, but I don't agree. I think that it can make you more selfish. I mean, you're forced to share everything, so it makes you not want to share. Think about it. I share a bathroom with 7 other people. I share a bedroom with 4 other people. Now they all want to wear my clothes. We share food and school supplies.
Is it so wrong to not want to share something? You're not obligated to say yes every time that somebody asks you too. Geeze Louise!
I feel like bad person feeling this way. But sometimes, I just don't wanna share!
At least I don't have to share my toothbrush...

Frustration is a frustrating thing...

Ok...College money and scholarships for the money and auditions for the money, it's all frustrating. I have written so many essays...They are coming out of my ears. :-)
My mom is the other frustrating part of my life. She has raised me to be independent and yet, she won't let me be that way. She pushes to make all the decisions. She told me today that she was "still the parent" and that I was "the child" and that she "didn't have to explain herself to me" because she was "the parent." I hope that I never operate that way with my kids. If I am going to tell them to do something or tell them that they can't do something, I had better have a good reason and be able to tell them.
Tonight, my mother told me that I couldn't go and do something because she wanted me to stay home. She isn't even going to be here! She said that didn't matter that wasn't the point. I asked what the point was and that's when she gave me the whole shpill about not having to explain herself. Sometimes, it seems like everything is going great with her and sometimes...
How do I know that I am going to make good decisions when I get to college and I am out on my own? I don't know for sure because, even though my parents have raised me to be independent, I don't make my own decisions about anything. Where I go and when I go and when I get out and when I go to bed and when I eat and what I eat and what I read and what movies I see, all of that and more is decided for me. It's aggravating and it makes me all the more anxious to be out of this house and in college, on my own. Arrgh. I don't want to feel this way and maybe, I don't really. Maybe I am just angry. I don't know.
It's all just so frustrating.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006


What a wonderful day! I love that there is a whole, entire day that is completely devoted to love. How neat is that?
Life has been good of late. I just finished ROMEO AND JULIET. We had a great run and now I start OLIVIATOWN here in the next week or so. After that it is on to PROOF. I am going to be paid again to be the ASM. That is the big news of the week.
I worked out at the gym last night after I got some of Jens's stuff from Kim. He left a whole bag of stuff here for me to keep for him until he gets back for PROOF. Then I went to the gym and did three miles on one type of bike and then I did the Ab's class and then I did the yoga class and then I did six miles on another kind of bike. I felt really good when I left there. I think that I am going to go back again tonight for the ab's class and to run again.
I have a million and twelve papers to write this week. I should be doing that right now instead of updating this blog for the .2 people who read it.
I had better go! LOVE TO ALL!!

Friday, February 10, 2006

That happy, glowing feeling

I feel very tired in a good way. I have been working my bum off and it seems to be paying off.
I have an audition tomorrow in LaGrange for the Voice department at the College. I think that I am ready for this audition. My little preview thing this week helped a lot. I sang for a few people that are in R&J. It was a nice feeling, to know that they were there because they love me and care about me.
Today I went and ate lunch at the Market with the cast from R&J. I love the act of breaking bread. Sitting at a huge table, with people you love, knowing they love you. There is no other feeling in world like being loved.
It's that happy, glowing feeling...

Tuesday, February 07, 2006


Ok, so today was a good day. I got a lot accomplished and I was feeling great. Ron Anderson called me and told me that I have the part that I wanted in OLIVIATOWN. I am going to play SMUDGE and that should be a lot of fun. So I was really excited and I called my friend, Jen, to tell him about it and he was excited about it and then he springs some not so great news on me and he tells me that Ron has offered the company class to someone else. ARGGG!!!! Why would he do that? Ron and Jens have been talking about the company call for moths and there is no good reason on God's green earth why Jens should not teach that class. This is not the perfect ending to the perfect day. I mean, Jens could still end up teaching Classical Scene Study, but it won't be the same.

Last night....

I went to annabeck's house and came out smelling like farm animal feet. Yeah...It was one heck of a night!
I went to the gym last night. It was nice to do abs and yoga, but the teacher was new and I am not so sure that I like her. Annisa is better.
I don't have much else to say. I have a lot to do today. I have to go and pick up three recommendation letters and cash a couple of checks and then I have Spanish and a friend of our family is coming over for dinner. Mary Lou has rehearsal tonight, which kinda throws a wrench into the plan. But all in all, it should be a good day. Tomorrow starts the whole show in the morning, show at night thing all over again. I might die before it's all over. I am having a hard time getting up in the morning. I need to go to bed earlier. :-)
Life is good and I am loving and living to the fullest and I am HAPPY!!

Monday, February 06, 2006


Ever felt heavy on the inside and not known why? That is how I feel right now. I can't explain the feeling and it's driving me CrAzY!! I know that I am entitled to my feelings and that it's ok to feel the way that I feel...But....I don't know. I feel bad that I feel heavy, because there is really no reason for it. I feel like I need to cry, but I don't know why and the tears won't come.
I have spent the morning at AC Fitness for Women. I supposedly "won" something and it was really just a discount, but the fact that I am going to teach at the new gym made it pretty pointless for me and so I get three personal trainer appointments. I went with my friend Kim and then we took Caroline and Sarah Ann to piano and then I took Kim to the food court at the mall and she got some lunch and then I took her back to her car and I came home.
I don't really have a lot to do today. I do have to be at the gym at 7pm and I have college stuff that I have to work on, but other than that.....
Life is good. I have spent the past few weeks doing ROMEO AND JULIET and I feel very good about the job that I have done with that show. I am going to miss the people like crazy. They have become another family and it's always hard to leave that behind and to move on to the next show. But at the same time, another show helps to make the transition a bit easier.
The person that I have become the closest to, Jens, is going to be the most difficult to let go of. He heads back to NYC on Sunday and I am going to struggle with that transition. I am so used to having him around and to know that he is about to be thousands of miles away is not going to be easy. At the same time, he will still only be an email or a phone call away.
I don't know, this whole blog is somewhat pointless(kinda like my thing at the gym this morning), but it has made me feel better.

Tuesday, January 31, 2006 life....

So, I have been thinking a lot about love and life and how the two should go together more and just don't. I mean, people live and yet, all too often, they don't love. My sister and I were having a conversation about the word love and how often we use the phrase "I love you" and the truth is, that I say it more than she does. She is afraid of being burnt if she says it and the person she says it to doesn't say it back. I have said "I love you" to someone and they did not return the expression. However, it didn't really bother me, because I knew, all three times, that that the person in question really did love me and was just holding back. Why? I don't know. Two of those times, it was returned and all was good. The third was never returned. All the same, it has made no difference to me, because I expressed my feelings and that was what I needed to do.
Imagine that your life ended tomorrow. What would you do? Right now. What would you start to do right now? I would be terrified that the people I love the most would not know how much they mean to me. It makes sense to me to say "I love you" as much as possible. You never know what will happen to you or to someone else and I want those around me to know how much I care.
Love is such an important thing. Not only to express with words, but with actions. There are so many actions that express love. Making your bed without being told to, giving your friend a wake-up call, picking up a piece of trash on the street, cooking dinner for your family. All these things say "I love you and I care enough to show you".
It's the simplicity of it all that amazes me. How easy is it to say "I love you"? Very. It doesn't take much.
Human beings crave love. It's just a fact. I crave love and affection. I need to hear it and see it all the time. And I do. I see it and feel it and hear it all the time. But that could also be because I look for it. It is not always the easiest thing to see, but if you look at everything through eyes that are looking for love, you will see it.
I love simplicity. It's the little things that make me smile and sigh and think " I love life". God has given me so much and to think how ungrateful I am at times. It makes me sick and then I remember that I am human and I ask God's forgiveness and He grants me that forgiveness and I realize how blessed I am. I love because He first loved me. The only reason that I love like I do, is because of Him. How awesome is that? I know that I have a HUGE capacity for love. That is one of my spiritual gifts. God choose me to have that gift and to bring glory to Him through that. Why me? I am a wretched finite creature that is nothing with out Him, but He chose me anyway. What an awesome God I serve!

Monday, January 30, 2006

Back to the norm....

So the house sitting thing is over and I am back to living at home, which doesn't completely suck...Yet.
I have been talking to Jens about school again. He wanted to know why I am not going to a conservatory if I am going to go to school for theatre. I tried to blame the whole thing on, my mom and he told me not to. He said that he knew that part of it is my mom, but there was something more and he wanted to know what is was. I finally told him that I was scared. I was scared to take the risk of a conservatory. At a conservatory, all you do is theatre. At a college, you are able to explore more. I didn't want to be tied down to theatre. The thing is, I am already tied to theatre. I know that I am supposed to do theatre. God has given me a passion and desire to do theatre. It would be a waste and wrong to not try and better myself in the area that God has gifted me in.
I have decided to go to LaGrange College for at least a year and then apply to Julliard in NYC. I need to be challenged. Jens told me that his biggest fear for me is that I will go to college and be in a theatre department where I will know more than the other students and be on the same level as my profs. I do need to be challenged. If I am not challenged, than what's the point?
I am excited about this new plan. It's a plan that I should have had all along. Lots of prayer is still happening, but I know that God is going to guide and direct me. I feel Him calling me into theatre. I know that is where I am supposed to be. I have the bug. Bad. I haven't been on stage since July. It is now January and it is driving me bananas. I have an audition on Wednesday night. It's for OLIVIATOWN at the Springer. I have auditions at CSU and LaGrange in Febuary and March for the drama and voice departments. Fingers crossed. Pray that all will go well.

Tuesday, January 24, 2006


so this whole house-sitting thing is neat, but there is nothing to it. I mean, I feed the cats, water some plants, get the mail, sleep on their bed, watch t.v., and get on their computer. yeah...There is nothing to this. There is no food in this house. Courtney is all about soy and organic and while I love being vegetarian for awhile and I do love organic, I cannot do soy and there is nothing here to eat. I need to go to the grocery store. I am hungry.
I have Spanish today which I am not looking forward to, but I am going to smile and take it for what it is worth.
Last night, I was overcome with a feeling of love and I feel asleep thinking "Thank you, Jesus. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!" I know that sounds weird, but I was, at that very moment, overwhelmed by the love that I have for my family and friends and so very grateful to my Creator for His blessing me with these very special people.
Anyway...annabeck spent the night last night. We had a good time and she just left for school. Sometimes I wish that I had to get up and go to school, just to see what it was like. I would have loved to have gone to school for highschool. I am grateful that my parents sacrificed and homeschooled me, but at the same time I feel like I might have missed something. I mean, Annabeck has amazing friends that she hangs with all the time. They are the same group of people all the time. I don't have a group. I have alot of friends, but not one specific group and I kinda wish that I had one specific group. It's not the same when people are like "hey, I'll call you when we all get together". I mean that is really nice and I always go, but I think that if I had been allowed to go to school, I would just have that network of support built in. I don't know, I may sound like a very ungrateful person and I swear that I am not, I would just like to be a little more normal sometimes. I love my life for the most part. Who doesn't wish some parts of their lives were different? But at the same time, I am happy at were God has put me and I know that He has a plan for me.
I am telling you, ever since a certain situation in my life went away...I feel this peace and calm all the time. My friend, Jens, commented just the other day how peaceful and serene I seem all of the sudden. I just smiled. Which caused him to smile and say "that's what I mean." Hmm...:-) I am happy. Really happy. God is good in all things, at all times. What a comfort and a joy!

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Update on the life of theresa

Oh my goodness! I don't know where to start. It has been so long since I have written anything and there has been so much going on.
Let's see. There was a certain situation in my life that was struggling with and I have let go and moved on and I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I feel more at peace and much calmer than I have in awhile. I know that God has been in control this whole time and that He continues to be and life is SO good.
I am in the middle of a production of ROMEO AND JULIET. That is going pretty well. We open this thursday. We are ready.. I thank. I wasn't at rehearsal today because to day is Sunday. I think that I have made up my mind on this whole Sunday thing... I think. I have been saying that for months and then I always change my mind. I know that it is very important to my parents that none of do any "work" on the Sabbath and I understand that we need to keep the Sabbath holy. I agree with that wholeheartedly, but I also think that by resting God means for us to rest our minds and bodies and you can be at home sitting on your rear after church and not be resting in Him, which is what it is all about. I think that I can be at the Springer or on the computer or mowing the lawn, and still be resting in God. Maybe that's just me and some crazy theology idea that I have in my head, but that is where I think that I stand....Again with the whole thinking thing.
Next on the list: College. I found out yesterday that I was accepted at Lagrange College with a guaranteed $4500 scholarship(hopefully with more to come). My mom informed me the other day that she and dad wanted to remodel the attic above my dad's dental office into a "loft apartment". That way I could go to CSU and die in Columbus of sheer boredom and a broken heart(the broken heart would be from all the depression from all the "what if's?" that I will carry to my grave). Yeah.. I'm not really diggin' that idea. Wonder why?
Let me see...what else? Hmmm. I am going to be teaching yoga at the new gym in town. I should start soon. We'll see. I am pretty excited about this. I would paid and be teaching a few times a week. I would get a free membership to the gym and that will be GREAT!! It will save my mom the money she wants to spend for me join her at CURVES. I like CURVES, but there are classes at this gym and there are more machines for me to work with. I think that this will be better.
Also, this is kinda weird. My friend, Rachel, and I were talking and she was telling me about all theses people that we know that are our age and the are getting married. How weird is that? This should not be happening for a few years, right? I mean, I always thought that I would be in alot of weddings around my 3rd year of college. I have so much more money to save for all the shoes and dresses and gifts. :-) Kinda crazy, I know. I just don't know how I feel about all that. I mean, I know that I was, at one point, convinced that I was going to go to college and get married pretty soon, but I am very much thinking differently now. I know that we all go through stages like that or most of us do, but these people are ENGAGED with rings and everything. I like being the way that I am with lots of friends and not having to worry about anyone but me. It's nice. I do think that it is sweet that mt best friend, annabeck, has a boyfriend now. I haven't meet him, but he sounds like a nice guy. I swear though, if he hurts her, I will come after him. I will. Do not mess with the mexican. Really not a good idea.
I think that is all for now. this is a really long blog and I am getting tired of typing. My sister, Caroline, and I are house sitting this week and so I am at that house. It's kinda fun. My mom is driving me crazy. We are about 20 minutes from home and when we got here she wanted me to call her while we were going into the house and talk to her until I locked the door. CRAZY!!!! This is why I CANNOT STAY AT CSU!!!!

Monday, January 09, 2006


Wow!! I have been planning a surprise party for my parents 20th wedding anniversary since August! It finally all came together on Saturday night. It was great fun. I had a couple of friends of mine dj the whole thing and I had lots of food help from so many folks. We danced the night away and, I do believe that, a good time was had by all.
The whole day was crazy. I had to run errands and cook and finish making all the decorations and I had to be the barn(where the party was) at 4pm, so that Zach(the dj) could set up. I was terrified that I wouldn't have enough time to set everything up. But I ended up having more than enough time and I found myself just sitting there, because Zach wouldn't let me help him set his stuff up.
The dancing was the best part. There were lots of guys to dance with and it was fun to watch my parents try and dance. I was surprised at the number of people who could really dance. I haven't done the Swing in awhile and it was great fun to practice.
I am so glad that it's all over. It one less thing for me to worry about. Now I have Romeo and Juliet to occupy my time with.
All in all, my week has been good. I have made some new friends and I have been able to hang out with old ones. I gave a rockin' party and I loved it. I am one happy girl!!

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

hmm, life can be so good....

I am in the middle of a production of ROMEO AND JULIET. It's going really well. We have a great cast and I just found out today that they are going to PAY me!!!! YEAH!!! I need the money soooo badly! I like being the ASM and I know this is going to be the experience of a lifetime.
This year is going to be interesting, I know. I have an amazing network of support! I have amazing friends and amazing sisters that keep me sane and in reality, while at the same time, helping me find my crazy side. I am so grateful that God has put people in my life like Annabeck and Kim. People who know me and love me anyway. I know that God has great plans for me this year and I am excited about watching the plan unfold.