Tuesday, January 24, 2006


so this whole house-sitting thing is neat, but there is nothing to it. I mean, I feed the cats, water some plants, get the mail, sleep on their bed, watch t.v., and get on their computer. yeah...There is nothing to this. There is no food in this house. Courtney is all about soy and organic and while I love being vegetarian for awhile and I do love organic, I cannot do soy and there is nothing here to eat. I need to go to the grocery store. I am hungry.
I have Spanish today which I am not looking forward to, but I am going to smile and take it for what it is worth.
Last night, I was overcome with a feeling of love and I feel asleep thinking "Thank you, Jesus. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!" I know that sounds weird, but I was, at that very moment, overwhelmed by the love that I have for my family and friends and so very grateful to my Creator for His blessing me with these very special people.
Anyway...annabeck spent the night last night. We had a good time and she just left for school. Sometimes I wish that I had to get up and go to school, just to see what it was like. I would have loved to have gone to school for highschool. I am grateful that my parents sacrificed and homeschooled me, but at the same time I feel like I might have missed something. I mean, Annabeck has amazing friends that she hangs with all the time. They are the same group of people all the time. I don't have a group. I have alot of friends, but not one specific group and I kinda wish that I had one specific group. It's not the same when people are like "hey, I'll call you when we all get together". I mean that is really nice and I always go, but I think that if I had been allowed to go to school, I would just have that network of support built in. I don't know, I may sound like a very ungrateful person and I swear that I am not, I would just like to be a little more normal sometimes. I love my life for the most part. Who doesn't wish some parts of their lives were different? But at the same time, I am happy at were God has put me and I know that He has a plan for me.
I am telling you, ever since a certain situation in my life went away...I feel this peace and calm all the time. My friend, Jens, commented just the other day how peaceful and serene I seem all of the sudden. I just smiled. Which caused him to smile and say "that's what I mean." Hmm...:-) I am happy. Really happy. God is good in all things, at all times. What a comfort and a joy!

1 comment:

annabeck said...

yay. i finally got an update. even though i talk to you all the time i love the blog thing. haha. you rock. and p.s. mike loved the notes. and i loved mine.