Thursday, July 30, 2009

My Latest Love Affair.

I keep saying that the month was perfect and swooning over Windy Gap like a silly school girl. You are probably wondering what the big deal is. It was summer camp, you say. And yes, it was summer camp. And so much more.

But, what does that even mean? I mean, loooonnnnggg days with early mornings and late nights don't make for a month of rest and relaxation. Sure the food was pretty good and those mountains were gorgeous, but was it really that great? Was the hard work worth it? And kids who were sometimes rude and thoughtless, were they really worth it? And those hot days that turned into cold nights? How did that work out? What about all those times when there was work to do and everyone else was playing?

Every moment was savored. From sweet, corporate worship to conversations so deep and meaningful. Words of wisdom from Eve and Kent and going on long walk/runs with Rachel and Allie. Almost dying in the swing with Hampton and giving the weather report on Thursdays and Fridays. All of these moments were wonderful. All of them.

God showed His love to me in each one. He was extravagant and sweet. He was close to me in every moment and in ways that I never knew before. As our month began to come to an end, I kept saying that I was so excited about walking with Him in a sweet brokenness, rather than a painful one. I have walked with Jesus in a personal relationship for over two years now. But a lot of that time has been painful, filled with tears and anger and bitterness. However, so much healing has taken place in my heart and there is now a sense of sweet communion with Him that I have never felt before.

I believe that a lot of this has come from spending a month immersed completely in Him and His love. Everyday was focused on Jesus and it was hard to go long without Him on the brain. I learned so many lessons and am writing them out, slowly, but surely.

It's hard to explain exactly what it feels like to leave such a special place if you haven't experienced something similar, but hopefully I can capture some of it over the next few posts.

1 comment:

Larger.Than.Life said...

This was very enlightening to read.
i have had a hard time letting go of Frontier.
Blogging seems to make it easier to get over
:) looking forward to getting together,