That Girl

How do you experience me? This question is one that my pastor encourages the congregation to ask of those closest to them.

I've started thinking about how I experience me. Inasmuch as I would love to be the girl that has the patience of a saint, never says a hateful word towards others, goes to the gym EVERY SINGLE DAY, eats healthy all the time, never sounds arrogant, isn't a hypocrite, has time to read five different newspapers, has read all the important classics, runs a 6 minute mile consistently, has a written portfolio that far exceeds her peers, sells her photography for outrageous prices, is a friend at all times, works hard, still dates her high school sweetheart, never complains, is always positive, is a neat freak (or at least neat), can cook like your mother, plays tennis like a pro, keeps up her golf game, and pays all of her bills on time, I'm just not that girl.

I have little patience, although it is getting much better. I can be very hateful towards others(Caroline, don't attest to this). I go to the gym most days, but there are some days when I just can't do it. I try to eat healthy all the time, but I love fatty foods. I am arrogant at times and being a hypocrite comes naturally. I read The Times when I have time (pun intended) and I skim the Ledger Enquirer. I don't have time to read as much as I would like and when I do, I usually do an easy read or I like to re-read a favorite. (Pride and Prejudice, anyone? Seven times, people. Seriously.) I run about an 8 minute mile. My written portfolio is poor at best. My photography doesn't sell...yet. I stink as a friend a lot of the time. I goof off at work when I should be productive. I'm not very good at dating. I do complain. I'm not always positive. I am far from a neat freak and my roommate would say I am far from neat. Period. I am not a great cook and it's definitely not like your mother's. I stink at tennis and my golf game is just OK. Who am I kidding? I stink at that too. My bills get paid on time, except for that one time when I forgot.

So, that's me. I admit it openly and honestly. Do I try my best? Most of the time, but not always. Am I working on me? Yes! Always.