Monday, December 26, 2005

Today has been....

a challenge. My head hurts like crazy and I feel really depressed. I feel guilty and sad. I know all that has happened in the past few weeks has been my fault and I wish that I could make things right, but I don't know how. I need to to sit down and pray. I need some peace. I also need to ask for joy and grace. Oh, and Strength.
I know that things will come out all right in the end. God has a plan and while I have no idea what that plan is, I am trusting in Him to guide and direct me and show me His will. It's so hard sometimes, but I know that He will lift me up from this miserable place where I am at and give me new hope and joy, if I just ask. It's almost as if I am ashamed to ask for it though. I don't know why. It is a completely honest and sincere prayer. He will answer, I know.
I need to pray for contentment. He has placed me where I am for a reason.

That's all for now, folks.


annabeck said...

everything will work out honey. pray is all that you can do right now. let everything take its path and follow God blindly, no matter what. i know it is hard to hear advice in times like this, but you just have to have faith. i love you so much and it hurts me when you are depressed. i love to see that smiling face of yours and when you are depressed i know that you aren't smiling. it hurts my heart. you are so dear to me and you are always in my prayers. trust God in everything, whole heartedly. i love you.

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