Ain't life good?

Well, I have been VERY busy these past few weeks. School is back in full swing and I am up to my eyebrows in homework.

I moved into a new apartment this past weekend and I am loving it! My room is kinda small, but really cute. Ben doesn't know it, but when he is home Sunday and Monday, we are going to hang pictures. :-)

School is a little tougher than I thought is was going to be. Math is killing me...again. The professor is much much much much better than before(he went to tech), but I am still struggling. French is harder than I anticipated, but I am enjoying the class and the homework.

Overall, life is pretty good.

Class.

So, Classes started yesterday and I really enjoyed all four. I think that my professors are going to be great and I think that it is going to be a good semester.

I went to Ballroom dance class last night. I do it every Thursday night and it is so much fun. It is a good little work out to swing dance with all the little old men. I just love it!

Work is a little slow today, but I am going to dinner and a movie with my friends, Cameron and Heather Tommey(brother and sister) tonight and I know that is going to be fun. And then my American Idol Audition tomorrow with a possibility of babysitting tomorrow afternoon and then Ben is home for Saturday night and all day Sunday. Fun times!

I am really bored right now. I have errands to run when Melissa gets back from lunch, but until then, it's just me and the old blog and facebook. :-)

Busy-ness.

The past few weeks have been insanely busy! And the past few days have been worse. I have been sick since Saturday and it is driving me insane.

Classes start tomorrow! I am so excited!

Also, in the world of music, I am auditioning to audition for American Idol on Saturday. My sister, Caroline, is going to go with me. There is an audition at our local mall on Saturday from 10-4 and we are going to go and sing. It should be fun. the first 145 in line get to audition for a chance to go to Philadelphia to audition for the real idol judges. Whoever wins that gets to go to Philly and is guaranteed a spot to audition there. Kinda cheesy, I know, but so much fun. :-)

I think that is all that is going on. I have been swamped at work. Ben will be home this weekend for a bit and I am excited about that. Our friend, Scott, is preaching here in town from St. Louis this Sunday and we are going to go and hear him.

That's all for now...

Giving back.

I have been thinking the last few weeks about how to give back. By giving back, I mean finding something to do that fills others and me at the same time. Something that means something. I know it all sounds so vague. I think Ben is rubbing off on me. :-)

I thought about Teen Advisors, but I am convinced that those kids would need all of me, not some of me. When the school year start and I get crazy busy with all of my school work and work, I want them to still be able to have ll of me and I am afraid that wouldn't be possible. The same with Young Life. I am just afraid of not being able to give my all and make it the best that it could be.

As much as I love my job, there is just not that sense of satisfaction at the end of the day. At the end of the day, what have I truly accomplished? A soccer roster? I made a few phone calls. Played on Facebook. Wrote a new blog. Yeah. Not very filling. I am thinking about starting a bible study on Monday nights for girls and just having that time to get away. Mama Lou said that we could meet at her house. I would want it to be late enough that we still had our Monday night dinners together. That time is important to me. I think that once school starts back up, I will see how much time I have left over and will be better able to see how thin I can realistically stretch myself.

I also want to be free to spend time with Ben. I am scared to get too involved in anything for fear that it might cut into the little bit of time that we have together. Saying goodbye is getting harder and harder. I feel like such a wimp crying when he leaves, but it is just so hard. I guess, soon enough we won't have that problem. :-)

The Weekend.

interesting weekend. i have a lot going on in my life with my two families. ben's family and mine are both going through a lot right now. however, it was nice to have the weekend to reconnect and be with one another.

ben and i went to a wedding reception for my friend macie murphy robison and her new husband, dan. she was a beautiful bride and couldn't have looked happier.

ben's mom had a little party at her house, which meant great food on saturday. friday was just long and i am not even going to go there, but dinner was good that night at deorios.
today was long, but good. we went to church this morning in lagrange and then came home and had lunch. ben left this afternoon to go back to atlanta. the more we do this goodbye thing, the harder it gets. i cannot wait for the day when we are together all the time. it is just becoming more and more stressful on the both of us.

after ben left, i snuggle up in my bed and watched 'invasion of the body snatchers." good quality movie right there. then my mom came and asked me if i wanted to go and hear my uncle preach at his new church, so i got up and we drove into town only to find that there is no evening church during the summer there and so mom said that we should just drive around and pick a random church to go to and so we did and ended up at rosehill church of christ. then we went to mcallisters for dinner. it was nice to just sit and talk abut nothing. since i am never home, i hardly get to just chat with mom and so i think that we both enjoyed just being together.

this week, melissa (the girl that i work with) and i are going to re-do the office while ken (my boss) is away. so there is lots of painting in my future...

Soldier Ministry....

Good times tonight at St. Luke! We had soldier ministry and it was fabulous. I was close to tears several times.
This weekend seemed to last for forever. Ben wasn't home this weekend because of summer finals at Tech and it always seems longer when he isn't here. I do get to see him tomorrow! Yea!!!
I have two weeks off from school and I am thrilled! No class, just the occasional brunch and work everyday at noon. I am looking forward to sleeping in lots and maybe doing a bit of reading.

Updates...

Wow. Going back and re-reading old blogs brings back a lot of memories, good and bad.

Life right now is very interesting. I am back in my hometown working for an attorney and going to our local university. I have changed my major twice. I started out in Music and Theatre, then went to English, and have since moved on to Political Science.

I am living at home and it's definitely not all that bad. I get to see Ben most weekends. My week is always full with work and school and the gym. There have been a great deal of changes in my life and they have been good and bad, but they have all happened for a reason.

Life update...

I am working two jobs and I think that i might die before I get to college. I am going crazy and not getting enough sleep and probably not eatting the way that I should.

Friends are good, family is good, college preperations are good, time is non-exsistent. I miss my life.

Other than that, I have nothing to add. I just want everyone to know that I am alive and well. Really.

Graduation Gift

My Parents gave me a LAPTOP!!!!! I am so excited! It has internet and all this really neat stuff. I was kinda worried about not having a computer of my own at school, but this is amazing!!! I didn't expect this at all.

I keep saying the same thing over and over. I am so excited!!!!!

I have the sweetest, most wonderfulest parents in the whole world!!

Graduation...

Hmmm..It's over! Praise the Lord! It was beautiful and I did savor the moments, but it was a long weekend.

I got up early and started to get stuff together. I was at the church by 12:30pm and got my table ready. I was a little freaked out when it was 1:30 and my speakers were not there yet...Yeah, that was a little scary.

Jack Rodgers and Scott Barber spoke and the were both AMAZING!! Caroline surprised me and sang me a beautiful song called "MY WISH". It was amazing and I cried my eyes out.

Afterwards, there were a million and twelve pictures to take. Then I left with Anna and Ben and we dropped Anna off and went and ran some errands for Mama Lou. There was a nice party for Anna. I got to meet the vast a majority of the Beck/Wingfield family and that was very interesting. They are all so funny. I really loved Mama Lou's sister, Vera. Too Cute!

All in all, it was a great weekend. I love my family and I love my friends!

College...Here I come!!

It's TOMORROW!!!!

I graduate from highschool tomorrow! I have so much to do before then. There are gifts to finish and food to prepare for the reception and letters to write and so much more.

I am excited about my graduation, but I think that I am more excited about it being over and being able to focus on Annabeck for the rest of the day. I am trying to savor these moments. I know it only happens once and I know that it will be over in a New York minute.

I don't even really have time to be writing this. I don't know what I am thinking. I have a rehearsal with my piano teacher for tomorrow. I am singing the National Anthem. I have a hair appointment this afternoon. I need to finish up the slideshow by burning it on to CD's.

More later....

Graduation Countdown...

Graduation is only 5 days away...I can't believe it. I have so much to do and there don't seem to be enough hours in the day.

Today was not the greatest day in the whole world, but I did find my graduation dress(which is one more thing that I can cross off my list). I love it. It is not what I was looking for, but it is perfect and very me. I'll post pics later.

I start a new job next week. I am going to be working a bbq place and I am kinda excited about it. It's going to be a killer summer, but things are going to work out just fine. They always do. :-)

I am starting to get sleepy and I have a big day tomorrow...So I am signing off for the night. But there will be lots to share this week, I am sure.

Party!!

My birthday dinner was tonight. Annabeck, Ben Beck, and Rachel Sussenbach came over and we had steak. Yummy. Then there cookie cake and banana split ice cream(my favorite). There were gifts and a rousing game of PIG, because Anna has two tests tomorrow and didn't have time for HORSE. :-)

We all had a good time, I do believe. I go the new Josh Groban CD and a Jack Johnson CD. Really excited about both of those.

Good day, good night. I am really happy. Enough said. :-)

I am so tired that I can barely keep my eyes open...

Today has been a CRAZY day. We went to church this morning. Ben Beck came too. That was nice. We all went and ate lunch and drove back to Columbus for our piano recital. That was my last piano recital and I was so proud of myself for keeping it together. :-)

We had Awana this afternoon. It was the last night. YEA!!! We get the summer off. Of course, I won't be there in the fall anyway, because of school.

Good day...long day. I need sleep. It's been a long week, with late nights and early mornings.

Life is good...

I cannot believe how great things are right now. I am just enjoying life and all that it has to offer.

Tonight I went to Brookstone's girl's soccer game...They lost. But a good time was had by all.

Lucy and I then went to get ice cream. And then I went to Anna's house for awhile. We played Frisbee in the hardaway field across the street. We are so sporty!!!

I got a new razor phone today. I love it. It make me very happy...In a non-materialistic way, of course.

All in all, I feel good about the way things are in my life. I am excited about the future, while savoring the present. Good way to live, I think. Obviously, that's why I am living that way.

God has been so good to me. I am blessed to have what I have. Relationships, clothes, food, a car to drive, life in general. I don't deserve all the goodness that exists in my life and yet, it's there. I sure do lover that God of mine! :-)

Voice recital

Last night was great! I felt so good about my performance. I sang THAT WILL SHOW HIM from A FUNNY THING HAPPENED ON THE WAY TO THE FORUM and JIMMY from THOROUGHLY MODERN MILLIE. I had fun songs this year and I was able to play with them.

I had an emotional breakdown yesterday afternoon about this being my last voice recital. It was crazy. I cried and cried. Then I cried at the recital. I know the same thing will happen on Sunday at my piano recital.

I know that the next chapter of my life is going to be very exciting and I am ready for it, but knowing that this chapter is going to end in 18 days is a little much.

They say that tears cleanse the soul...I am going to have one, very clean soul.

I'm Legal!!!

So...Today is my 18th birthday. My first decision as an 18 year old citizen of the good 'ole US of A, was to eat breakfast...How liberating...

Prom was last night and that was fun. Zach was a great date and doing the group thing with lots of friends was the best idea ever. We danced all night. Dinner was amazing and all in all, the night was a success.

Today has been a good day. I got a million and 12 phone calls. My mom and Dad gave me a gift to open today(more to come at my party), and Annabeck gave me her gift. I have to say, Beck gifts are the best. Random and funny, with lots of thought put into it.

Zach, Carson, and Kelsey painted the rock for me...At 3am. Very funny and sweet!

Voice recital tomorrow night. Kinda exciting and yet, bittersweet. It's my last highschool voice recital and my last with Kimberly Cone. I know I'm going to cry...

Friday night with the Braves...

Watching the Braves game right now. We're losing. It's because I am not at the game. However, Ben is there. Hopefully, the power of the beard will help the Braves out tonight. 3rd inning, 1-0, Mets. Stupid Mets...

Tomorrow is prom. I have a voice recital rehearsal at 9:20. Then lunch with Annabeck at noon. Make up at 1pm, hair at 2:30pm, and Zach is picking me up at 5pm. I think it will be a good day. I like being pampered. :-)

Sunday is my birthday. 18 years old....My oh my, I am getting to be sooooooo old. We are having fellowship meal after church. We will have cake and ice cream and presents at that.

I will have a party later. No big plans, but I like laid-back, low-key stuff anyway. Dinner, a few friends. Nothing big. I think that Zach is painting the rock for me...

Ahh, the braves are still losing. Things had better change up here pretty soon.

End of the School year stuff...

It's that time of the year. Only this year begins a new chapter and I am really getting somewhat stressed.

I am putting together a slideshow for graduation and planning this graduation, pretty much by myself. I don't know what happened.

I have prom this weekend and my birthday. Then there is a voice recital on the 1st of May and a piano recital on the 7th of May. The graduation on the 20th. Busy month.

This week is a crazy week. Honestly, it's going to stay crazy for awhile. No slowing down. I don't think that I would have it any other way.

I had a close walk with Patsy Cline last night after midnight...

My dad took me to see "A closer walk with...Patsy Cline" last night at the Springer. It was pretty darn good.

Katie Deal played Patsy. She really had the voice down. As a die-hard Patsy fan, I was bound to be critical, but I was pleasantly surprised to find that she had mastered a lot of the vocal qualities that made Patsy...Patsy.

There was a packed house. Everyone was really into the show. Jens is back in town and he was at the show. It was good to see him. John Briggs was in town for the night. He directed ROMEO AND JULIET. It was nice to reconnect with friends who have been gone for awhile.

Academy starts soon and I am really excited. I think that we are going to have a great group. The fact that I get to spend four weeks, all day with Lucy Flournoy and Chrystal Carter makes me one happy girl.